I've been trying to write this post for weeks .
but i don't know what to say .
Hi? .
How are you? .
I'm unwell .
lately i struggle to eat one full meal a day .
the horrors.. you know .
watching my friends here slowly break under the pressure of it all .
watching my friends there quickly retreat from pride and liberty, to hide in the shadows, to stay off the lists, to stay safe from the next steps in a familliar political moment .
watching myself turn in to a recluse .
hiding from my .
broken beaten body .
hiding from fear of the stranger .
hiding from the unshakable feeling that society has forgotten people like me .
one again the villain of a national budget .
i just want my life back .